that girl.

Wee

2010-08-02T00:23:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wonder how long it'll take for someone to notice if one of us disappear. Probably those whom you're really close to will notice within few minutes to a day that you're gone. But what if it's those people whom you THINK you're close with. Hey, you know what? Nobody cares!

I wanna plan my days ahead and just shut up. Nights love.

Memories

2010-07-20T00:31:00.001+08:00

We tend to wake up everyday forgetting about what brought us here today. Taking advantage of each day thinking 'hey! There's always tomorrow!'. But that's always not the case.

Yesterday I received my first birthday present for this year from my eldest brother. I'm not boasting really. I'm just curious how the whole thing is like repeating itself. He bought me a D&G shades which I liked and you should know by now it may be quite pricey. He then got nagged by my mum for spending so much money on such things and my birthday is still 3 months away.

This reminded me of an incident which happened during raya season yearsss ago! My family and I were at Geylang Bazaar and I saw the pink ranger costume! -.-" (I was a kid then!) I wanted it so bad! But of course my parents thought it was just a waste of money. I remembered throwing tantrums and felt really really sad. But guess what? The next day, Andi headed down to Geylang and bought me that pink ranger costume. I was happy ofcourse. But on the other hand, he got nagged by my mum. (I pity my brothers for going through all that for me.. Haha)

At the end of the day, I got thinking again. All this while, he just wanted me to be happy.. I feel guilty too. My happiness might just hurt someone. I'm thankful for eveything my family have done for me.

I guess I'm just emoing thinking about family stuff since fasting month is coming. But hey, I'll still be awesome. Still smiling and will still face tomorrow as a brand new day.

2010-04-07T01:11:00.002+08:00

Pics will be up.. probably just the cupcakes. But the

came-rah! is with my brother. So I have not really

uploaded it into my comp.

Btw, I was just looking up at Nigella's Recipes and

I'm just excited to start baking again soon. This week

will be packed with so many activities! :S Probably

next week okay? Cheesecake maybe?

And i just realise that Nigella has a white Kitchen Aid.

I WANT THE PINK ONE!!! My current one is still

working. Probably I should save up for that. :))

Mannn. so many things to save up for.. I'll keep

reminding myself. "Buy things that I NEED, and NOT

what I want!"

Any ideas whether I should keep my recipes in a

file or a notebook?

Knowing that i heart buying pretty notebooks, Rabiah told

me not to invest in a pretty notebook just for my recipes.

HAHA. FINEEE. and yesss i will bake for you creme brulee

soon :)

I'll be off to Kelong with Sara's Family this weekend :)

Hearty Hearts

Erlianna

2010-04-05T00:39:00.003+08:00

Well, i'd like to update just to make my darlings happy.

So from you guys may already know, I'm just spending

my free days at home baking!

(This is thanks to Fauzi - my australian far relative - who

have given me the inspiration to continue my passion to

bake!)

So this post is mainly on my days baking and cooking...

Hope you guys won't fall asleep reading! :)

I have baked a few things for the past week.

Apple Cinnammon and Walnut Muffin

I tried baking a muffin for the first time and it turned out

okay.. Not the texture that I was hoping for. But it seems

that my faithful baking fans love it. haha! Thank you!

I got the recipe off a website that I thought was trustworthy

enough. I felt really happy when i left the muffin batter for

a few minutes in the oven and i started smelling the chemical

reaction the apples, cinnamon and nutmeg came together.

Awesomeness and Heavenly.

Apple Cinnammon Cupcakes

This one was rather impromptu as my poor sick brother was

really sick and tired of eating the porridge tanter has cooked

for him and he made me bake something special for him.

It was a rainy day and so.. what is much nicer than apple and

cinnamon cupcakes? It turned out well. Tasted way way wayy

awesomer than the muffins. However, the texture was too

mushy for my "idea" of cupcakes. But it made my family happy. :)

Alfredo Pasta

I got this recipe from this recipe book of a friend name Maisarah!

and well I didn't quite like how the strong taste of Parmesan Cheese

that lingered after eating it. As a whole, i think that the recipe was a

bit off. Probably I'll check up on Nigella's website whether she has a

better recipe :) But again.. Thanks Mai for lending me your recipe book!

Creme Brulee

Anyone has any idea how long can we keep the creme brulee? This

is my 2nd time making it and well, I can swear to you that, it turned

out really well. Stupid thing was that i didn't manage to take any pictures

of it. HOWEVER, the sad part was that, the next day it turned all soggy

and the caramelised sugar seemed to become liquid. Really weird!

But the night before, my family and I managed to eat at least one

ramekin filled with awesome creme brulee :) I finally got everything

right. Except probably I should cut down the number of eggs.... The taste

of the eggs was a bit strong. Sorry Yunwei... if only it didnt turn bad on

the day you came :S and also Ness and Fai, I couldn't let you guys taste it.

Thats all for now. But I promise you guys that I will update soon

on another round of my baking adventures :)

Thank You faithful fans! You know who you guys are! I love you guys lots!

Mwahh!

Hearty Hearts

Erlianna

2010-02-01T23:31:00.002+08:00

Recent updates of my life.

No.1 I'm screwed for dance! SERIOUS

No.2 Why is life suddenly filled with lots of goodbyes and deaths?

No.3 I realised that i'm really tired. (I need more sleep) Funny I always say that but never really decide to go to bed early. haha.

No.4 I cant wait to watch "Valentine's Day" when it comes out. TAYLOR! ;)

No.5 I'm super busy this Feb that it sometimes scares me thinking abt how free i'll be in March. (and broke too)

You wanna say hello. but you didn't because you're scared of what might happen after that.

hearty hearts

2009-12-05T02:08:00.003+08:00

MISSING YOU

Vanessa says:

*ya hahah

*can't believe we're almost done

*hahaha

♥Erlianna is thatgirlwholovesyou says:

*yaaa

*omg

*3 yrs huh

Vanessa says:

*mhmm

♥Erlianna is thatgirlwholovesyou says:

*everytime i look at my matric card or ezlink

*i rmbd the day we went to take the pic together

*hahaha

Vanessa says:

*hahahhaa

♥Erlianna is thatgirlwholovesyou says:

*gosh

*and we went shopping afterwords

**afterwards

Vanessa says:

* yeahhh

♥Erlianna is thatgirlwholovesyou says:

*i remember us taking pics then too

*hahaha

*i think it was century square

*haha

Vanessa says:

*ya somewhere in tamp

*haha

♥Erlianna is thatgirlwholovesyou says:

*and i was scared of going to sch

*coz i didn know anyone

*haha

*goshh

Vanessa says:

*hhahaha

*long time ago

*so much past by so fast

Yes Ness, time pass by so fast. Graduation is less than half a year away. And afterwards we'll say goodbye again and continue with our journey separately. haha. Gosh. I still remember those days in SAC when we were more worried about our O's. Who would have thought fate led us to this day where we're still in contact and still speaking to each other?

Haha. Even if we were separated in TP, at least I still have you to bump into once in awhile. Though those times can never cover the times I've missed you but I just want you to know that it was great to actually bump into you even for that few minutes to just speak to you again. This goes to Boo and Tuts too! You guys cheer my day up in just a millisecond when I see you guys in school! (Boo, when your were still in TP i mean) haha. Even after, you were still my BFF till today my S! :)

Who would have thought on the first day we met in primary school, that we'd actually get the chance to continue to speak to each other till today? Haha. I miss you guys so much! mwahh!

Hearty Hearts

2009-12-02T21:25:00.000+08:00

IM TIRED. I wanna go sleep!

Bye!

Hearty Hearts

2009-11-25T21:38:00.003+08:00

I'M NOT A WORKAHOLIC!

I admit I spend a lot of time at work compared to my other friends. But come on! I enjoy the rush of things. Haha. Okay, I promise i'll find time to meet each one of you on days when i'm not tired. Some of you are waiting for a cheescake meet up... a river island shopping meet up... a new moon meet up... a christmas shopping meet up.. and many more. Haha. I PROMISE I'LL FIND THE TIME. And I MISS YOU GUYS A LOT. Each and everyone of you. :)

DID I TELL YOU!

I bought JT's DVD. I finally got it. And never a day since the day I bought it, have I not stop watching him dance and sing when I got home from work. WHICH TOTALLY moves my heart and soul. sigh! haha. and totally make me energized after a day at work.

LONDON

Kak Mas and family just got back from Europe! YAY SHE LOVES LONDON TOO NOW. I MEAN ITS LONDON. I LOVE LONDON. and i started thinking of the possibilities of how different life would be if I moved to London 2 years back. Wow.. time flies by so quickly. And I still wonder if that dream of being in London again will come true.

You're such a nuisance in my life. GRR

Hearty Hearts

2009-11-22T01:23:00.002+08:00

Have you ever wondered how life is weird and twisted that it has led you to this day and moment to be reading these words I'm writing?

I lived another day today. Thinking, I guess I am thankful. I have done uncountable mistakes in this lifetime that sometimes, it scares me.

So many things i'd wish I can turn to someone to pour my heart out. But at the end of the day, I just know, that it will be hard. And the fact that I'm sharing my burden with someone else.

Meeting all my friends at different interval of time and date somehow made me realise that i've changed. What happened to the bitchy moments I had with Boo and Ness? I need to feel young again. I NEED TO.

Every single thing that you do, God is watching. And I know what the fuck is going on.

Hearty Hearts

2009-10-29T01:26:00.002+08:00

Remember.

This night 2 years ago, i reached home pretty late from
staying with my family at NUH.
Going to my bed thinking about what to wear to school
the next day and what were my plans for the day. and those
worries that i had been worrying was placed aside.
I finally decided that i should just wear whatever I'd
grab in the morning and rush off to school as per
normal... taking '8' to school. Such a regular day, I
thought.

I remembered vaguely what classes i had. However, there
was one moment which strucked me that something was
wrong. Being in class, i had to silent my phone. But somehow
that didn't allow me to fully pay attention in my Communication
Skills class, (or also known as CMSK). I had a few misscalls from
different family members and messages after messages.

I picked up one of the calls finally, after excusing myself out of the
classroom. All i heard on the other line was my Aunt's voice in
a grieve yet rushed voice asking me to take a cab down to NUH
right that moment. Somehow, that call sounded scary but i was
calm.

After speaking to the lecturer after a few moments, I ran to the
taxi stand. I still remember that even in the cab i was still calm.
camwhoring here and there... i did asked the cab driver to rush.
like those movies i've seen on tv. i reached NUH not knowing what
to expect.. i saw my mum sitting beside him. stroking his hair with
tears in her eyes. i saw how that morphine changed him in a manner
that i dont even understand what he was trying to say.

Everyone told me to stay strong for what's to come. And i just nodded
but in my head i was screaming to ask them to just SHUT UP. after
awhile he stabilised. Knowing he couldn't take the smell of food after
all the chemo, my mum ate lunch outside and since i was tired from
school i rested by the sofa at the side of his bed. i remember hugging
my pillow which i left at NUH for the past weeks he's been there.
My mum came back in to the room and everyone except the 3 of us
were there. I still rememer looking at my watch it was just 4.20 pm..
why not rest my eyes awhile. a few minutes later, i was awoken by my
mum's cries.. asking me to wake up. knowing me, i took a few moments to
regain my 'consciousness'. i was still in a daze when she told he was gone.

it took me awhile to get it through my thick skull that it was a fact.
that he was gone. i looked at my watch. it was 4.35 pm. Calculate that
time interval. i never got the chance to say goodbye properly. but all
i remembered was staring at his lifeless body, waiting for it to move
according to the rhythm of his breathing while sleeping which i've seen
for the past weeks. i never saw it again.

2 years has passed eversince that moment or day. somehow even if i put
up a front, deep inside i feel as though im still crumbling. somehow i wish
all of this is a nightmare and i'll wake up from it soon. this doesnt
feel right.

I miss you, Papa. Every smile, i smile, everyday is for you. I want you
to know that I'm stronger for this family. I hope wherever you are,
you're watching us with a smile on your face too. I miss having you
around to listen to my boring stories. and having to hear your
voice for any reasons. and hearing you call the 2 nicknames you
gave me when i was younger. i feel disgusted hearing it from others and i'm
sorry. i promise to stay calm. the hardship you've gone through
those years, now i finally understand.

2009-08-30T21:38:00.003+08:00

O'rite!

Try spotting the difference

Haha apparently, the first pic, Trey haven't cut his hair. and the 2nd pic... well according to him he just cut his hair. hahaha. fine. he layered and make it spikier :)

By the way, i baked today! Recipes thanks to my favourite Gorgeous "passion for cooking" cook, Nigella Lawson

By the way, yesterday i was at ION to fill up the application form for the upcoming COMEX IT Fair. haha. We took a pic in the toilet... and we got scolded for doing so. which i totally dont get the idea of not allowing of taking pics in the toilet. Was there any sign that said we weren't allowed? I obviously didn't see it if there was one.

Dreaming of you...
Hearty Hearts

2009-08-27T20:51:00.002+08:00

For what it's worth

It's really sad when you have to end things a certain
way you don't want to. Just to make everyone happy,
you tend to give up on certain things that matters.
I'm sorry, but i didnt intend to do this... especially this
way. You know how much you mean to me. You know
we've tried. At least we did right? Maybe one day, if
fate is on our side. We'll try again and maybe, then, we'll
make it through all the way.

These past few days were so hectic! MP! MP! MP!
oh, and driving! haha. My TP is coming up. Sigh.
Scary! :S

I really wanna destress and bake right now. But it seems
that i dont have the time! I want to watch The Proposal!
Ryan Reynolds and Sandra Bullock. WOOTS! Boo, i know
you don't like her. haha.

I still have yet to see you to celebrate your long overdue
birthday and iftar together :) Arab Street?? heee.

Ness, you too. haha. SOON PEOPLE. SOON! :)

Please give me strength for all the things i have yet to face..
Hearty Hearts

2009-08-23T23:11:00.002+08:00

Family Bonding Time!

And so Ramadhan Month started yesterday..
So far, it's been great since my family have been
around. After breaking fast, Abg An, Abg In, Cherry
and I have been playing Taboo and Dai Dee!
Haha. I'm happy coz i kept beating them at Dai Dee!

For Taboo, Awesome (Abg In and I) v.s. Mooncakes
(Abg. An and Cherry). Well Awesome was leading...
Until Mooncakes somehow, SUDDENLY managed
to beat us! haha.

Well at the rate we're going, it's making my Ramadhan
Month a great one. :)

Met up with Yunwei and Sara for dinner last friday.
Well, the last dinner before fasting month. Took lotsa pics
at Ion's toilet. haha. Here's some. Check the rest out in FB!

For I have loved you another day...
Hearty Hearts

2009-08-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

OH MANN!!!

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!

Life would be perfect right now if..

1) The All-American Rejects come to Singapore
2) Justin Timberlake come to Singapore
3) Get Gazillion of dollars
4) Get paid every time i breathe in air.
5) Lotsa Shopping!

haha. Random moment. MANNN. i really wanted to see AAR at Malaysia :(
I heart Tyson! :( and JT too! haha. I really wish they come to Singapore.
SOON.

Hearty Hearts

2009-08-21T23:44:00.000+08:00

The Long and Anticipated Update!

Haha. This is for Trey and Boo.

I'm so tired with whatever is going on with life!
I just wanna rest for a moment.

Anyways, i've been busy with Major Project! and
soon, Internship! it's gonna pass by so quickly!
oh gosh! i'll miss all my classmates!!

Happy Birthday Boo! MY BESTIE EVER!
My Serena :) and MPCG 1. haha

I have decided that certain things are better left
unsaid. Certain things that are left not mentioned
for the better of everyone.

Fasting month is finally here. Another year passed
without you. We're managing. We're learning to smile
and live another day without you. We're adapting.

People change. I did. So when do we learn to accept it?
I'm up and awake. Never been dreaming.

Hearty Hearts

2009-07-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

Bunga Citra Lestari ~ Aku Tak Mau Sendiri

Sejak ia pergi dari hidupku
Kumerasa sepi
Dia tinggalkan ku sendiri disini
Tanpa satu yang pasti
Aku tak tahu harus bagaimana
Aku merasa tiada berkawan
Selain dirimu
Selain cintamu

Chorus:
Kirim aku malaikatmu
Biar jadi kawan hidupku
Dan tunjukkan jalan yang memang
Kau pilihkan untukku
Kirim aku malaikatmu
Karena ku sepi berada disini
Dan didunia ini aku tak mau sendiri
Tanpa terasa kuteteskan air mata ini
Yang tiada berhenti mengiringi
Kisah dihati
Aku tak tahu harus bagaimana
Aku merasa tiada berkawan
Selain dirimu
Selain cintamu

Chorus 2x

Dan didunia ini aku tak mau sendiri

Everything has changed and im the only one left alone.

Hearty Hearts

2009-07-06T13:18:00.002+08:00

On certain days i sit and wait for
something to happen. And when it
doesn't, it makes me feel sad and
down. But after that i told myself
that its better that i stop mourning
and be happy.
I don't know why repetitions occur.
At times, im tired of it.

I think what truly makes me happy
all the time, is when i get to spend
time with all my family members
like last weekend. I know ours isn't
perfect. Which family is, right?
But i guess, the main thing is that
we are all together. The weekend
trip boost my spirits to be back up
on my feet again. I'm happy for now.

There are still things that are left
unsolved between you and i. but i
really do not wanna talk to you right
now, coz i dont see the point.

AND MY DEAR PEOPLES, I MISS ALL OF U.
i'm sorry i've been busy.
i hope we can meet up soon.
to all my peoples! haha if im gonna start listing,
it'll be really long.

Rabiah you're one of them.
Bev too..
Ness..
Rin..

OKAY IM NOT GONNA LIST. YOU KNOW
WHO YOU ARE PEOPLE.
haha

Hearty hearts

2009-06-27T00:54:00.003+08:00

I was such a huge fan of Michael Jackson.
I got irritated with him as the years goes by with all his stupid
acts and nonsense shits.

But when he passed today, at first, i thought. SO WHAT? its just
MJ. Do u still remember one of the first few songs you loved? or the
time when you used to scream nonsense thinking you're singing
your favourite song? Well, you might have guessed already. To me,
one of those few songs i loved was MJ's songs, Guns N' Roses, Metallica,
Air Supply? the Cranberries and many more.

IT then hit me. That person who i used to look up to is gone.
I was called Kartika Jackson once. Imagine how he've changed my
life? And i wonder how my brother's life was really affected by his
songs. If he hadn listened to his songs while he was a toddler,
would he continue his passion of music?

After it hit me, the first 2 person i thought of was ofcourse my brother
and my dad. i was about to turn ard and say, "Pa, MJ's gone and its
sad isnt it?" but wait it hit me again. He's gone too.

and i talked to Trey and we start to realise that even people like
Freddie Mercury died. and look how both him and MJ affected
our lives. How abt Kurt Cobain? These legendary people who
once lived and had issues with life but still were successful in
their career. How sad aint it? How will i react if axl rose or slash
died then?!

i guess the greatest people has to die first. Leaving us with great
memories to be shared among the generations yet to come.

People, just sit still and think abt it. It may be the next moment
someone close might go. And you'll start to ponder. Why it'll
affect u. Imagine right now, this moment, practically everyone
in this world, is affected by MJ's death.

MJ, you're one of those who affected my life. Rest in peace.

Hearty Hearts

2009-06-19T00:48:00.003+08:00

I HEART BALI BANGET!

or also known as

i heart bali a lot! :)

i'd wanna share some embarrasing moments in Bali.
and for those who know me well, you wouldn be surprised.

so embarrassing moment no. 1

i went to the billabong store over in bali and they speak to
me in indo and all. coz they think im from jakarta and all.
i mean i can understand some of the words. but some words
are kinda like their slang which im not so used to u see.
and soo they were saying about the stuff here are so "keren".
the way they pronounced it, it sounded like "grand".
so i kept saying "ooo, why is it so grand here?" and they stared
at me as if i was like an idiot or something. hahaha.

and then i found out. that actually, keren is cool in indo slang.
not grand. -.- so i did learn something new! :) hahaha

embarrassing moment no. 2.

so if u guys saw my FB pics, u see me taking pics on the beach.
the one with the really gorgeous sunset. yeah. so i removed my
slippers and walked ard the beach barefooted. ate dinner there.
no, i didn forget my slippers. i rmb to wear it back. so i headed
to Krisna. this huge store that sells all stuff made in bali. cheap
and nice okay! so i was picking a tshirt for jack jack when this 3
guys, the salesmen came to me and said, "Embak, baru pulang dari
pantai ya?"== "Young lady, you just came from the beach?"

then i was like "huh?". they were giggling away. then i looked down..
my feet was like covered with sand!!! i forgot to clean it! omg. yeah
so they disturbed all the way after tt. -.-

haha. i'll update more later ya. for now, girls choose the dress that
you want. :)

$10 per piece :)

Code: 1.1 Khaki

Code:1.2 Brown

Code:2.1 Pink

Code 2.2: Baby Blue

Code: 2.3 Dark Grey

Code 3.1: Blue

I have another yellow tube dress. i'll put tt pic up soon. :)

Hearty Hearts

2009-06-04T00:39:00.003+08:00

watched The Uninvited with Sara and Yunwei
the day before. waste of money. stupid movie.
but i enjoyed going out with them and later on
with siewlin and joanne at town.

starbucks with boo earlier. its so hard to contact
u la! i would have done what your sis asked me to
ifff u came 5 minutes later. haha. miss you boo!
come on. for torres on 26th June. come with us
please!

i thought you knew me better. maybe i should just
wash my hands off you. ouh and remind me to not
say anything anymore

hearty hearts

2009-05-29T23:33:00.002+08:00

AND SO!

i watched terminator with Abg In
and his friends. it was soo niceee.
haha. so cool!

i'm excited for transformers.

MY STUDY LIFE IN POLY HAS ENDED.
except for WEM test next friday

left with major project and SIP. sighh

im sick again.. maybe coz of tired-ness.
ITS FREE TIME AGAIN!

im gonna rest, bake, cross stitch, catch up
with all my shows, meet my friends, enjoy
life to the fullest before another hectic semester
ahead.

Hearty hearts

2009-05-24T05:42:00.002+08:00

I know this came in a bit late.

Isn't it awesome that Kris Allen won??!!

His sweet smile melts my heart.

and his voice moved it!

Hearty Hearts

2009-05-16T16:43:00.003+08:00

Today i'll be updating on Elly's 1st Birthday!

i only have a few pictures coz my brother
forgot to charge the camera batteries...
which ended up with low batt only at the
beginning of the whole party.
BUT enjoy anyways!

I have a 2000 word essay to write on
subprime mortgage crisis due this coming
friday. SIGH. im only about half way through.

Went for my first yoga class today! haha so fun!
I LOIKE! i was the youngest la. and guess what!
practically everyone there is in the banking or
accounts line. hahaha. too stress thats why go for yoga!

Plans for Angels and Demons movie yunwei, sara,
pei jun, trey, joel, sean? 27th, 29th, 30th May??

Plans for a celebration in december for graduation?
Yunwei? Sara? Pei Jun? Trey? Joel? woots!

i'm tired. are you?

Hearty hearts

2009-05-09T15:25:00.003+08:00

Omg, seriously some of you can just be so sweet! As sweet
as honey and all the sweets and chocolates in the world!

Abstract from yunwei's blog.

My dearest yunwei hotstuff bennies!!!
haha yeah time passed by so quickly. we only
got to know each other during the ITFair! and
you're my awesome friend who always support
me in everything i do. especially the shopping part
*winks. haha you're the person who i can talk
about splurging without feeling guilty! :)
Thank you for the greatest friendship you've given
me! I REALLY APPRECIATE IT! i hope our
friendship will last forever and ever and ever!
and we're awesome! :)

Hearty Hearts

2009-05-09T12:19:00.003+08:00

Do the following.. (for the fun of it)

1. Go to the left hand corner of this website and click pause on the juke box.
2. Click play at the youtube video here.

3. Laugh with me while watching N'sync - Justin

Hearty Hearts

2009-05-08T00:36:00.002+08:00

You know, certain things are easier said than done.

I'm gonna change certain things in life. hopefully its
for the best? i'm trying but i think it's just not noticeable.
Anyways, knowing me, i would not sit still until i'm sure
i can't solve things. So you can sulk all you want, but i'm
not gonna give up just like that. :)

Assume assume assume. super irritating. it's gonna be
very tiring if you're gonna do this all the time.

Oh by the way, a note of caution, i'm sick and tired of
people trying to make use of me. So. i swear, you wouldn't
wanna see the other side of me.

well today i baked a whole batch of cupcakes for fai's mum's
birthday. well.. i enjoyed myself and i realised that i really
love baking afterall!

Tomorrow to the dentist! and i think the rubber bands will
be green! :) or red.. or blue.. i'll decide when i get there.

Hearty Hearts

2009-05-05T23:50:00.004+08:00

Stayed home today because of the mild fever i
had the night before. I think it was coz i exerted
myself too much during the weekends with so
many activities. in other words.. not enough
rest! and whats worst was that i played badminton
yesterday.. and thats when my fever started.

so yeah. Fai came over to take care of me yesterday
and today. thank you so much. I know i was super
whiny..

today, i knew he was infront of my gate before he called
out for me coz i smelled his scent.. haha
and he brought me a rose and a chocolate!
you pamper me too much you know!

thank you for coming and cheering me up.
and i still feel embarassed about picking up the phone
with that stupid manja voice and it turned out to be your
mum. -.-

Hearty Hearts

2009-05-02T13:00:00.003+08:00

School has started and its been 2 weeks already.
The feeling of scaredness to face year 3 has died
down i guess. Gosh its been soo fast dont you think?
suddenly we're all in year 3... and i still remember the
orientation camp week zero when i met Reanne for
the first time at my bus stop. So many things have
changed since then.

Speaking of year 3... our timetable is super slack.. It
feels weird though!

This week i watched 17 again and Friday the 13th.

haha can u believe i watched a horror movie? well
Jared P. convinced me to watch. He is so HOT. haha. But
yeah i was covering my eyes with my pink file. haha.
Ask Sara if you don't believe! There was only 6 people
in the cinema. 2 couples and us. and Sara can happily
tell me the story of Coming Soon in the dark cinema
WHILE watching Friday the 13th. -.-

17 again. well for the first time i thought Zac E. acted
well. and the movie was really heart-warming and all.
I heart Ned. haha. super funny dude. i watched it with
Baby who couldnt stop laughing like hell. and after that
we met Dinu and went to the arcade. which we thrashed
him at all the games.. hehehe. and took neoprints!

Planning to watch wolverine though its a stupid movie.
Anyone wanna watch with me?

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2009-04-16T01:53:00.002+08:00

Money makes the world go round!
People will be people always..
baby what goes up come down!
this i know, here i go..
do you love me? lovee me?

Im feeling good. :)

I just watched ANTM, Project Runway and
that stupid Paris Hilton BFF Show.

Antm, i just hope celia and natalie goes all the way.
Project Runway. Seriously! sooo creative.. vavavoom!
and that paris hilton show? haha i know Onch is so weird
and all. but i think he is really adorable!!!

k thats all for now.
Erly Kate OUT!
*inside joke*

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2009-04-07T01:11:00.002+08:00

its time.
time for a fullstop.
where there is no more buts.
and commas too.

i can't sleep through the pain..
crying for nothing..

2009-04-01T23:50:00.002+08:00

i'm speechless abt this.
i miss you but i don't know what to say to you.
i'm glad you're doing well by yourself.

2009-03-30T10:13:00.003+08:00

Mannn i need motivation to update my blog.
haha. i feel super lazy to blog already. gosh.

oh wells. i just came back from a family day
trip with TTSH people and mum and aunt awa
and baby and dinu and hui jie!

ZOMBAA! OTAKKK! OKTAA OKTO!
hahahha
inside joke ;)

hui jie super funny and adorable la. anyways.
i really enjoyed myself though it was rather
rushy and i didnt really shop much.. but stuffs
were uber cheap and it's awesome.

and i practiced my bahasa indonesia a lot! yayy.
:) i think its better than my malay! hahaha.

ok thats all for now. haha

GOODBYE SINGAPORE!

BABYBABY

Kartika Airlines Banner!

some house that looked nice

cake lapis store!

touch the sky

i sat alone..

all of us!

you see that gatal boy!

2 aunties sitting on an alligator!

cutest couple

elephants are just gorgeous!

aunties!

in the bus

hotel lifts

the 3 of us bullied mr addinu

wash and blow! boys only.. haha

the girls camwhore!

ZOMBA ALERTS

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2009-03-19T00:06:00.002+08:00

i just thanked you for your support
i cant believe i spent my whole day thinking of u
i can't believe u didn bother
i seriously can't believe u acted like nothing happened
well guess what. i'm pissed. happy now.
and everything is affected.

you ALL should be happy now.

2009-03-14T01:13:00.002+08:00

Happy white valentine to everyone!

and more importantly, happy birthday
MS GORGEOUS TRIANA REYASTUTY!
19 seii! woots! Ain and i still have 7 months more.
haha.. :) Enjoy your day today and i hope it
will be one of the best days of your life!

haha. And i just start to love to say..
"HUMNA HUMNA HUMNA"

it's from spongebob. haha.

And i just wanna say that i love my boyfie lots lots.
thank you for your support love. Mwahh

there's still that glimmer of hope
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2009-03-11T15:18:00.003+08:00

If only i could re-live the moment

BON JOUR!

C'est la vie!

that's my bestie and behind her is a hottie! hee

that's d'marqee!

TIX!

RJA!RJA!

Bumped into valerie leong!

another one spotted. ahah
\

In the crowd

TOTALLY LIKE AXEL ROSE!

he looks so cute when he ties up his hair! this was the part.. "I will
never let you fall... i'll stand up with you forever.." ahhhh

there goes the rubber band

oh by the way, at the end of the concert, they smashed the guitar.
sobs.

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2009-03-11T02:21:00.002+08:00

Back from RJA concert. it was awesome. pictures will be uploaded soon.
Swollen cheeks due to some dude kicked me while moshing. he broke
my red earring too. so yeah. left cheek swollen... there was this fat b*tch
who kept pushing me n boo. and stepping on our toes. bloody irritating.
BUT APART FROM ALL OF THAT...

RJA WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HE REMINDED ME OF AXEL ROSE!
AWESOME :) and there were a lot of hotties. *faints!

heee. u know i was all sick. but when i reached there. i was like wayyyy
better. mainly i gave in to panadol. :( coz i really wanted to feel better
for the concert! and i wore my red wool burret. And my bestie boo is
awesome too! bumped into ash at macs. haha.

i'm watching antm cycle 12 now. awesome.

that's all for now. i'm gonna rest soon. AFTER ANTM!
:)

You are not awesome. I am
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2009-03-10T00:11:00.002+08:00

Excerpt from KF's blog iambeno.bs.com

"A random thought
Been a long long time since I really wrote anything solid here

Been talking to Erly on msn these few days. It suddenly dawned to me, on why I feel so comfortable talking to her. I always wondered why. Technically speaking, I only saw her on 2 days, coz she only came on the last 2 days of work, but I talk to her more than others

Somehow she just feels like the elder sister figure that I wanted my own sister to be, but yet I cannot relate my problems to my own sister. That's the irony. I can communicate with someone I met for 2 days with ease, rather than the person who is currently next door

I guess I'll better talk to Erly more this year, seeing that she's gonna fly to UK for her degree after poly if I'm not wrong. >.<

I got an idea of learning to bake from her eh? Haha

AND I PASSED MY SS. 14/25, WHEN I THOUGHT I FUCKED UP THE PAPER"

KAY FONG u're an awesome dude!
and yes i think u're like my baby
brother too. i do feel comfy talking
to you too. haha. i'm just so touched.
i dunno what to say.

gosh. speechless.

im still sick n i'm stuffing myself with oranges and yogurt.
I'M NOT GONNA EAT MEDICINE.

Just yet. heh.

i'm sneezing like there's no tmr..
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2009-03-08T23:27:00.003+08:00

I'm currently watching World Stage and now its PCD
singing i don't need a man. I like nicole's corsette!
sexy stuff. haha. she keeps on making weird sounds.
haha. gosh. -.-

I'm sick. Past few days i have been going out... i bought
all the stuff i need to wear for RJA. haha. i'll take pics with
boo on that day okay! :)

Have been going out with Baby and family. It was fun..
went to lavender.. plaza sing.. suntec! Dinu rented a
movie called The Son of Rambow. OMG DAMN
CUTE AND HILARIOUS. AND THE COOLEST THING,
there is.... ED WESTWICK!!! SPEAKING IN HIS
HOT BRIT ACCENT. hahaha. *faints. oh mann.
and there was this french boy, Didier Vol.. has this cute
HOT FRENCH ACCENT. haha. hot stuff.

i'm planning to keep my hair long and oh yes.. i'm wearing
braces soon!

the other day, Yunwei, Sara and i met up and we ate
practically supper at coffee club. i swear i'm a huge fan
of desserts! ;) the white chocolate parfait with raspberry
sorbet and chocolate opera cake. super nice! yummm

and while waiting for Yunwei to come, Sara and i went
to Kino.. and i saw Nigella Lawson cookbook! omg.
hardcover is like $61! crazy. but it was super thick and
totally awesome looking. Sara found me one dessert
book which i end up not getting. Now i'm regretting.
MANNN.

The next day, i was back in town at cineilesure for
movie and dinner with Rin and Ness. Dinner at
pastamania and we watched He's Just Not That
Into You. it was really nice. i was laughing and
as usual hating scarlett. i think we were one of
the noisiest group there.

While eating i saw Mizan and Nasir walking pass
pastamania i think they were gonna go for a smoke
break. haha.

i'm sad and i'm missing
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2009-02-19T23:19:00.002+08:00

Its nearly been a month since i updated.

A lot of things happened. Now its study break
and next week is my exams week.

Mum's Birthday was fun. steamboat and stuffs.
We bought the Kate Spade wallet.. which is
really really pretty.

Valentine's Day came and passed like it was
nothing. Well eversince the T.O. with Fai,
we didn't really celebrate it or whatever.

But i did celebrate it with Boo and it was
awesome! valentine-anti-valentine. :)
Walked ard town and it was really fun.
Baked cupcakes for everyone! :)

yesterday aunt awa's birthday and we
ate at east coast. which was pretty awesome.
From novena, the kids were squashed like
sardines at the back seat. And it was like
the 5 of us. And our butts ain't that small.
haha. we managed to reach east coast
safely. Most memorable moment was at
Esso when Mama and Aunt Awa went to
top up and pay for the petrol. while we stayed
inside. Super stuffy. and then the girls tag
team against the guys. And tickled!!!
haha. Ehh wasn fair. I was very vulnerable!
haha. i wished aunt awa on the wrong day!
i thought her birthday was on monday.
but actually, yeah it was ytd.

Joanne, Siewlin and i planned to go genting during
the hols. BUT it was on the day when Red Jumpsuit
Apparatus is suppose to come. n so thanks to boo,
i've decided to go RJA! wooohhh exciting! along with
bev and maybe kay fong and his friends.

Kak Yani is going back to aussie this thurs.
But we plan to watch movie together next wed
evening after my exams. woohh another
exciting thing. Though dunno what movie laa.

Hearty Hearts
I just want to stay in your eyes...

2009-01-28T23:54:00.002+08:00

Today today. such a nice lazy day.
went school early morning with
a lot of things in my head.

i think one of these days i might
just go crazy thinking. my body
was aching due to the sunburns.
me and sl wore the same colour
clothing today haha.

went simei with fai awhile to
get stuff. we never got the
chance to talk things out.
hopefully tmr. we'll see.

came home and felt so......
sigh. no comments. slept awhile.
super tiring. i think i might fall
sick soon. it doesn matter.

tmr to the gym with boo!
something that i'm looking
forward to. :)

OUH YES. I BAKED CHEESECAKE TODAY.
we'll see tmr how it's like. i'll take pics in the
morn kay. haha. i've decided to use baking
as a form of destressing! :)

CAN'T STOP!
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2009-01-27T23:17:00.002+08:00

Let me tell you how i got my name. :)

i know its rather dumb to talk about this.
just felt like sharing. My real name was
actually Camelia. But after awhile, my dad
thought that even though it was a nice name,
people might tease me one day.. camel*
Well.. after that though he came up with
Kartika as my 2nd name coz of the meaning
itself and that it was my mum's favourite
character's name in some indo movie last
time..

And awhile after that.. My parents thought
of my mum's boss, who is patient, strong willed,
a good leader and generous, Ayliana... And thats
where i got my name.. my dad twisted and turn
into Erlianna. haha

I was actually telling a friend about it quite
recently and thought that i just wanted to
record it here.

The CNY was fun.. went to pasir ris beach for bbq..
swimming with boo.. her cousin so cute laa. LAILA!
"there!" haha. her favourite word. and you know
changi rise is like soooo NICE and AWESOME...
and we took pics... BOO! PICS! we went on the slide
for the kids! when it was obvious on the signboard
it stated "12 years and below!" ahaha oh wells! :)
ate macs after that at N2.. :) missed it

went to the beach again for flying kites. super fun..
with cousins and all. SIGH. 2 days before was didil's
birthday and their 2nd year anni! haha. so cute.
didil's birthday cake was uber nice and sinful!
*faints* BUT yeah didil helped with the "flying
fox" thingy at pasir ris beach play area and i kinda
hurt my chest. but its kinda okay. so after that
day i had a phobia of it till like today coz Dinu and
Baby kinda pushed me softly and ensured me
that it was gonna be okay! :) AND THAT DINU
AND ABG SHAFIQ was suppose to sit with those
indians who was like looking at them!! hehe.
Kak Yani, dont be jealous! Mama threw the ball
at us and we were all scared coz she acted
like as if we were her competitors. SCARY!

i'm super tired anddd i have sunburns on my boddayy.
Thank u aunt awa for the anklet ;)

Candles.
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2009-01-23T22:16:00.002+08:00

Finally the 2 major reports are done!
now to focus on QSM and the upcoming
exams on 23rd and 25th!

I'm loving my Xperia phone! haha. so fun

and so i've been baking once in awhile
when i'm free.. like chocolate chip cookies..
brownies.. well i'm just enjoying myself baking!
:)

today i went to eat dinner with fai and
i think i bumped into someone i knew.
according to fai, she was waving and saying
ERLY! hmmm i was so blur so i didn't see.
so whoever it was, i'm so sorry i didn't mean to
ignore u or anything like that!!

Been bumping into betilda in school. haha.
she's so busy busy!! and ness! cheer up,
even though you failed your driving,
there's always a next time! and maybe
you'll do wayy better! and congrats to
siewlin who passed today! :)

so.. come to think of it, i kinda lost the
feeling to learn how to drive! sighh.
and i know my volkswagon beetle is
waiting for me.. but.. we'll see how it
goes yeah! :)

I MISS BOO, MAI AND NESS LOTSA.
boo next week kay! the other 2,
always busy!! hmph. haha. we'll meet up soon
:).

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY CHINESE FRIENDS!
hope you'll enjoy this day and get lots and lotsss of angbao! :)

Hoping this happiness would last!
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2009-01-17T00:31:00.003+08:00

To school and met Sue and Boo at alfiah.

Went over to Boo's place and baked brownies.
Used the mix coz apparently she wasn't too
motivated to bake from scratch! hahah.

Well maybe next time heh?
Forgot to inform you guys that, i'm gonna
start tuitioning Mai's sister soon.
which makes it easier to see her more often!

I miss all of you laaa. Today, Boo and i talked
about our differences and similarities. AND
reminded each other a few things about the past!
haha "We Belong Together.. NANNANANANA"
:) ouh and we both finally realise that it was
actually wentworth miller in the music video.
hahahaha. OK fine we're slow. so WHAT.

I just finished rereading my old princess notebook.
Memories of SACSS :) Miss you guys!!

OH YEAH, i've got orders for cupcakes
and brownies alrd. haha! how awesome isn't it.
Planning to bake cupcakes for valentine's. hmm.
Maybe just to get extra cash here and there. :)

Planning to join Salsa at CC.
Tuesday was and is gonna be badminton day.
Last tuesday was soo awesome. after the
longest time, i played badminton with SL,
Sara and Joanne. So FUN! haha. BUT you
should have seen us after that day! Complaining
most of the time about our aches. especially
the butt muscles! haha

I just wish things would have been different. If only..
Hearty Hearts

2009-01-11T22:15:00.002+08:00

SEEE I UPLOADED PICTURES!!!

Part 1

Part 2

MWAHHH

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2009-01-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

I know i have not been updating much. i'm so sorry!
I thought term 2 will be more relaxed.. but i guess
not! Anyways, now school school.

And i've decided to exercise on tuesdays,
Bake on sundays.. well last sunday i baked
cupcakes and my no. 1 fan is Kak Nadiah,
Fai and MR. Jackie Chan! hahaha.

This weekend.. hmm maybe egg tarts?
hehe. I'm suppose to meet up with Mai,
Boo, Bev and Ness for christmas and it seems
that i don't have the time on weekdays.

Apart from that, we found someone's secret
blog. and you know what? You're more of
a hypocrite than me.

Fai bought me a bouquet of flowers :)
Long story.

I just had my K+ test and well. I don't know
whether i'll do well. I know a few of us are going
to die.

BTT is coming up this thursday and it clashes
with K+ theory test. goshh. see crazy right?
and next week another assignment due.

I'm really missing you guys a lot... BLAA.
n i'm stressed up with life.

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2008-12-30T23:49:00.003+08:00

Back Home

Pictures will be uploaded sooonnn.
I'm back from indo and i have to say that
it was a fun trip. haha even though i went
with the elderly. :)

There was the bursting of the tyres.. My
grandpa fell 3 times.. Cousin who got married..
meeting the 2 childhood lover.. Seeing a really
pretty beach.. Chocolate spa.. Coffee spa..
Shopping at Batik stores.. eating rice everyday..
and ate CHAKI meal (chicky meal) at indo's kfc..
to borobudur.. to Kraton (palace).. to villa up the
mount merapi..

Thats the summary. Its really really longg. Missed
my family, my bestie and my boyfie. :( but yeah now
i'm back and its all awesomee.

But school have started. which was yesterday..
As much as i'm glad, i'm really really tired with all
the school work.

For those who are also feeling stressed, try
watching this. It has been helping me out.
seriously. hahaha

So as of now.. im gonna rest.

Bird is the word
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2008-12-13T14:17:00.007+08:00

ITS OVER!

I've been busy.. sorry for not updating!
Its gonna be a long post due to the pictures!
My term test is finally over and now the hols
are here!! I'm excited for Indo Trip and my free
time now..

Reanne is evilllll coz i was talking to SIEW LIN!

I'm just gonna blog about yesterday! :)
After my so called last paper due to last week's
test was posponed, I went to meet ain for
lunch at Al-fiah! Passed by my old school.. MEMORIES.
sigh. It was 2.30 p.m. and she was accompanying
me for lunch when her test is at 3 p.m.
Haha. Thank u for accompanying me :)

Headed to Boo's House! I brought a tub of BnJs
Choc Brownie. haha. happily eating while we chatted.
I really had a fun time with her. Maybe coz its been
the longest time since we actually just hanged out.
Hmm Boo planning to go clubbing this week.
Which is cool.. She asked me along.. but oh wells..
Ugh. Lend her my HIMYM disc 1 and 2. Boo, you
totally have to watch it!

After that i met fai to watch Erin's Percussion Band
Performance. Well it was awesome! super funnn
and nice. Saw a few Sacians.. :)
Oh btw, i'm wearing the top fai bought for me from
Zara for our anniversary :)

Faiaiaia

Erin!

Something something something... Dark side!

The other 2 Besties

The Bestie again!

Vote for the couple of the year!

Erly, Erin, Felicia, GARNELL

And now, random pictures with boyfriend

SEDIA!

WHAT LA!

ABANG INDRA AND KAK NADIAH BUY FOR ME!!!!

i was so happy coz.. the other time i was at tamp mall
and i saw this i wanted to buy.. buttt the queue at the
cashier was supppeeerrr long. so i put it back. AHHH
they got it for me :) Thank you

Littlest things that makes me ha-hha-ha--ppy :)
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2008-12-03T00:42:00.003+08:00

The funniest things

My advanced derivatives project required the basic
knowledge of Visual Basic (VB). Well, I had no idea
wth was that, so I practically asked my mum and
eldest brother to help me. And Now, to the funny
story.

My mum thought she knew how to do it but half way
she felt that the project was to complicated. So, she
called up all the IT consultants in TTSH just to ask
them to come over to teach me how to use VB(without
me knowing). -.-“ but ofcourse in the end I managed
to get it done without the consultants’ help.

Those IT consultants are those who are paid by the
hour. Not just any ordinary kind of IT consultants!

Hahaha. I was really shocked and touched at the
same time! Gosh. Well, come to think of it after I’m finally
done with my project (with the help of Reanne and Saralyn),
it wasn’t THAT hard. Really. But yeah, all the IT
consultants kept calling my mum today asking how her
daughter’s project is doing. Haha. Thank you so much
Mama for your support. Thanks to the other 2 for helping
me a lot!!!

Today, i met boo. It was such a happy day for me :)
I really am glad.

1) I met boo today. I MISSED HER SOO MUCH.
she FETCHED me at tp. hahaha. played with my facebook
while waiting for me to finish up my meetings. After school,
we headed to starbucks. She bought her norm hot choc and
Me, my toffee nut latte. Such nice hot drinks for a cold
evening! We talked.. we teared.. we laughed and smiled.
:) and we decided to celebrate christmas together.
Boo! i'll be reaching S'pore at 1 pm. so hopefully we can
meet for dinner or something.

to my darling bimbos(faridah, mai, suhaiza), hopefully you
guys will be free on christmas. Thought of meeting up and
give presents! and dahdah! u owe me tons of it. :P

2) X1
yes i know i've been saying i'm gonna get it like by dec. and
well yes i'm getting it soon. Tanter accidentally told me my
mum is already planning to get it for me either this week
or next. it doesn't matter coz i'm gonna get it soon!

3) Chanel Bag
SAY WHAT?! i overheard a conversation of mum and a particular
someone regarding a chanel bag for me. Maybe its nothing. but
if i really do get one, thank you! but if not, its fine. coz, i know
its ex, and i don't really need it. Much. hahaha.

4) I met Fai today
I miss him so much :(

5) Last but not least
I received umm. a really beautiful and expensive present from
my mum today. it was really nice and ex that i didnt even dare
to touch it at first. Ask fai, he was like staring in shockness!
It was all about the blings.. Thank you so much mama. :)

Tmr after school i will be going for a facial treatment with my mum.
Clear my dark circles! GOSH!

I cant wait for Indo trip. 2 more weeks! :)

Reanne, Boo, Kak Mas and I are planning to join Amore!
AHH exciting :)

If i were like what you said, i would have sat still while you did your
mistakes. Bloody'ell you're just too gullible and stubborn!
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2008-11-26T23:27:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday SaRAHlin! haha

Okay but seriously...

Happy Birthday Saralyn Low Su Luan
a.k.a. My Childish Partner in Crime

Haha. 18 years old. finally la!!! hahaha
But stilll the same! hmphh. still draw smiley
faces on my notes and on practically everything.
watch out little piggy!!! Hope you really enjoyed
your day andd love the presents and surprises! :)

DON'T EMO ALREADY LAA. PLEASSEE!

and......................

Happy 1 1/2 yrs Anniversary to my darling and i!
Thank you for a great day and I WUV YOU! ;)

My day in school todayy....

Those awesome days

Jack-ie Chan sitting behind me. hee

Sorry for the bombs today. I'm really sick! :(
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2008-11-18T22:45:00.004+08:00

I'm tired!!!

blaa. sleepy. i need to do my projects. kay.
FOCUS.

Theres a chance X1 is gonna be mine faster
than expected! =)

Kak Mas bumped into the softie potter who
used to send my dad for x-rays. haha. HE
was the one who scared my dad early morn.
well yeah the funny days. And my dad loved
to disturb him. Thinking of that softie potter
reminded me of when papa was in that ward.
The ward that was at the old building... and
it kinda made sense why i remembered that
place coz, every night after we visited him,
he'd sent us out of the ward till the door.
and how he'd hug and kiss each one of us and
said he loved us. waving goodbye...

It's just this sudden feeling...
Hearty Hearts

2008-11-16T11:17:00.002+08:00

** I edited the website to the cool snowflakes already :)
it should load properly now...

2008-11-14T19:09:00.004+08:00

SNOWWWWWW

I just saw a website cherry gave me. Its super nice.
Its an article with pictures on it. You don't have to
be a Muslim or a Christian to read it. Just to summ
up the whole article, Water molecules are actually
giving out messages in the form of snowflakes...
Its really cool. The miracles and wonders of God. :)
Cool Snowflakes

Today was CCN day for the engine, biz and Sci
i think. haha. Fai bought me a rose. :) thank uuuu
and i was happily eating my kacang puteh from this
stall called the "Mama Shop"!! then i brought
Kian Hao to the place and he bought 3 more packets!
haha. I bought Mr Gavin one balloon! hahaha.
Coz he told me he'll only allow me to go out
of the classroom only if i buy him one! hahah.
HE was kidding ofcourse.. but i bought for him
anyways!

And i still cant stop listening to the Mamma Mia!
sountrack! GOSHNESS.

I'm going sweeeeminggg, wiiiiminggg.... MING!
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2008-11-14T00:15:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Ms Joanne Koh!

Finally u're 19. STOP ACTING CHILDISH
AUNTIE. AND DON'T BE LATEE FOR CLASSES!

I was super tired today.. Well at
least we finish a bit of ITPM project.
AND we got out test paper back. I'm kinda
feeling disappointed. Coz i knew i could have
done better.

Anyways, Siewlin and i did our hair today.
I went for hair treatment.. and Siewlin permed!

If loving you with all my heart's a crime,
then i'm guilty..
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2008-11-11T23:15:00.003+08:00

For the Better!

Joanne, Siew Lin, Reanne, Saralyn.

THEY SAID I SHOULD STOP SHOPPING.

but come on! Mr Goh said last weekend
Singaporeans should spend to stabilise
the economy. HEH. See i'm being a
Singaporean for ONCE.

Fai got for me 2 birthday presents alrd..
One is the Mamma Mia! soundtrack! haha.
i'm sorry, i'm just so addicted to it right
now. And yes the present is a bit late..
Coz we've been busy.

Tmr is ITPM test! MUG HARD PEOPLE.
HECTIC SCHEDULE. sighh.

so when you're near me, do you hear me S.O.S.?!
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2008-11-09T21:20:00.003+08:00

our last summer!

i love this song at the moment.
I don't know why...
And the new song in my blog's playlist.
hot n cold :)

And finally after 9 months, Xperia is out
in Singapore. SEE HOW LONG I'VE WAITED.
Well thats a good thing right?
But guess what? Its $638 if i renew my
contract. SO. Anyone sweeettt enough
to buy it for meee? haha. Kidding... No
worries, i'll be waiting. either that, or i'll
wait for X2. ;)

Kecik, i know we both have been waiting for it.
hahaha. We'll see who get it first. :)

no goodbyes...
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2008-11-08T23:57:00.003+08:00

KILL ME ALREADY!

i'm super duper tired. Yesterday, i went to swim
again! but this time round was at Mak Ngah's
swimming pool. With Mama, Mak Ngah, Aunt
Awa and Baby. Well it was fun!! after that they
came over to my place and we watched Mamammia!
haha. Pierce Brosnan is SOOO charming!

After that we went for supper at AL-AMEEN!
after that went to East Coast... By the time we
reached home it was 4.30 a.m.

Woke up around 10 and studied a bit of ITPM
before going out to shop with my paternal
relatives. Went geylang to get materials for
Kak Lin's wedding which is in July 09!
It was really awesome. I just love helping out
for weddings! then headed to CK tangs.
I just hate those irritating people who looks
down on me. Especially when they THINK i
can't afford it. So when i headed to M.A.C.,
they didn't even bother to help me or
what-so-ever. so i headed to Shu Emura.
Well their service is wayyy better. So i
bought stuff from there.

AND YES. KILL ME ALREADY! I've been
Spending sooo much. K STOP SHOPPING
ERLIANNA KARTIKA MOHD SIRAT!!!!!!

I got a lot of work to do.. sighh :( gonna
start doing it soon.

As much as i am arguing with fai, it doesn't mean
that its over between both of us. It just shows
that we're human too and that we do fight.
No matter what i still love him.

ITPM GROUP PROJECT
The one in blue is the Project Manager.
Her name is Awesome Pearson. hee

The day the 3 of us practically wore nearly
the same thing!

I found my dad's Carpenters and ABBA cds.
Somehow, it made me feel closer to him than
ever before.

cause Ive lost loved ones in my life, who never knew
how much I loved them. Now I live with the regret
that my true feelings for them never were revealed
Hearty Hearts

2008-11-06T23:40:00.004+08:00

Today i went swimming. With Ain and her
cousin kak kin. haha. SO CUTE LA SHE.
A lot of sight seeing!

Gosh. I'm feeling super tired. But i felt like
blogging. feeling a bit down now. I dunno.
maybe its those feeling that will go away
after some time. I thought about sometimes
I can have soo much confidence in myself
and suddenly, it's all gone. Maybe its all
about the mindset.

I bought billabong slippers for myself today.
i need more shoes and sandals.. and slippers
for school and all that. well i bought belt too.

These days, i prefer either being with my
family or friends. They make me happy.
Nothing much to worry about i guess.

And today i tried the Straits Times Online
E-paper. SEE awesome perks of being a TP
student. hahaha. i read and read. I realise
i miss reading ST.

I think i've been spending too much. Which
means that my stress level is high. Meeting
Yun Wei, Pei Jun, Joel and Saralyn for dinner
next wednesday evening. AWESOME. and
next thurs to the gym! yay.

Shocked with the new healthy lifestyle?
Everyone have to start somewhere.
Well this is my first step. :)

I just wish it's all different...
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2008-11-04T20:31:00.003+08:00

AHH i know i have not been updating.
Been busy with school! really sorry! :)

I worked last weekend! At taka! omg there was
the mini cooper and all that. ITS AWESOME.
there was the yoyo competition which was cool
too. and made friends... haha. Met old friends!
I really miss work these days. As much as it
was tiring. Everyday is like totally different. The
feeling is so holiday like. Apart from that, some
of the people are nice. I just love disturbing Jerry
about his shirt, Mingxiu about his dance, Edmund
coz his mum called! (HAHHA), Mizan who loves
to literally BUMP into me, Sara about the NUMBERS,
Shawny Horny!, SIGHH and so much more!
Pei Jun, Yun Wei and Joel is not forgotten!
What i miss the most is the static which i gave to
practically everyone i had skin to skin contact
with! hahaha I think Yun Wei got the most from
me! heee. Sorry!! OH OH and I had a migraine
on the first day.. and Joel thought it was called
a MEMBRANE! hahahaha. k. shhh. hahaaa.

I miss all my friends!!! goshh. I'm sorry i have no
time to meet you guys. I'm really really busy with school!!!

Jo, i know you're birthday is coming!
We'll meet soon KAY!

Boo! I really miss youuu. AND I DIDNT
FORGET YOU!

Ness!! YOU'RE AWESOME! HAHA. I
REALLY LOVE MY PRESENTS!

Bev! We'll meet soonnn. :)

Ain! Gym this thurs :)

Speaking of presents. Its been a month
since my birthday. SOOO.
Thanks for all the presents darlings!

Speaking of school earlier on, there's been
so many politics which i wouldn't want to
really say it here. Well, like Reanne said,
we can only trust the 5 of us girls.

Well i thought you were different. Feeling used.
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2008-10-27T22:01:00.003+08:00

A New Semester

Alright. the first day of school was super
exciting that i rolled around in bed the
night before as i was too excited. I DUNNO
WHY! But by the time i sat in the lecture,
i was super sleepy and was stoning the whole
time.

Alright.. so this week i realised i have a
hectic schedule. Ouh and Ain bought for me
a bra from La Senza. and then i joined as a
MEMBER! :) YAYNESS. AWESOME
PERKS.

I watched tropic thunder with fai. THAT WAS
AWESOME TOO. he got me the pumpkin filled
with POPCORN. Totally awesome.

then i headed off to KL on saturday morning.
We stayed at Le Meridien. Side by side with Hilton.
IT WAS AWESOME. love their ambience!
bath tubbed for the 2 nights with my strawberry
bubble foam bath from body shop. AWESOMENESS.

haha seriously i shud stop with the awesome. BUT
COME ON. it WAS AWESOME. Relaxing. Shopped
a bit. Ate yummy food.

andd. i bought this huge stuff toy. Which is the paw
of Stitch! hahaha. I SAW IT AND FELL IN LOVE WITH IT.
hahaha. at KLCC. went to Topshop and zara. couldnt find
Mango. Apart from that i fell in love with this hoodie
sweater with a wonder woman print on it at Topshop. I
shall buy it here. NO WORRIES. :)

Missing the steamy strawberry smelling bath tub!
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2008-10-15T17:00:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i took half day leave from work.
Mainly coz before that, i was visiting the
toilet quite a few times. Ness came over
and we took a cab to work. By the time it
was 5 p.m. i knew something was wrong.
I HAD TO GO HOME! so i did. and through
out the whole night i did not sleep mainly
due to the fact that my whole body was aching
and i had high fever. So i went to the docs
early morning. and now i'm at home.

well last weekend was rather fun. Thanks to
Mama, Mak Ngah and Pak Ngah, they got me
a watch. Mainly it was from Mama but the other
2 didn't know what to get for me so they decided
to chip in. haha. Oh wells. So i got a new watch.
That Saturday night Didil came over and while
he transferred games into his PSP from my bro's
computer, i straightened my bro's hair. HILARIOUS
well we headed to Mustaffa coz i was searching for
Audrey Hepburn's DVDs. By the time we left there
it was about 4 am in the morning. The 3 of us had
Macs breakfast at the new kallang Macs. Sent
Didil home and we headed home. We reached ard 6 am.
hahaha. one of the coolest day ever.

Well, there was no Audrey Hepburn's Dvd there.
Was sad but oh wells. A few days later though, i
came home from work and Abg In handed me 2
Dvds. And when i finally realised it, I SCREAMED.
2 Audrey Hepburn DVDS! :) Sabrina and Roman
Holiday. THANK YOU!!!!!

When nothing else could feel more colder.
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2008-10-11T02:16:00.003+08:00

this whole week passed by so quickly!
don't you think so? haha. It was fruitful
for me coz i had lunches with Boo and
Mai :)

Went to the doctor at National Skin Centre
AND my wart is FINALLY HEALED. YAY.
haha. Work has been fine. Raya too. I'm
getting the hang of my life now. haha.

I just watched My Fair Lady. Gosh, it's
really nice. AUDREY HEPBURN. She's
soo BEAUTIFUL. :) The movie was butt
achingly 2 hours 45 minutes but! it was
worth it. I have decided to find Audrey
Hepburn's movies on DVD and collect it!
Should listen to her songs too. Moonriver
and Wouldnt it be Loverly. haha.
I LOVE HER. ok hush now.

School's starting soon. Excited yet scared!
Shopping soon. Movies to watch! House
Bunny and Mamma MIA!

Past tend to repeat. How about us?
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2008-10-04T03:24:00.001+08:00

BIRTHDAY 2008 - Flyer & Earle's Swensens

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2008-10-03T04:40:00.002+08:00

A Day to Remember

As you guys would have guessed already, it is
my birthday today. Haha. Thanks for all the
wishes darlings. Via phone, smses and msn. :)

woke up late today mainly due to the fact that
i stayed up to watch Charmed season 2. A LOT
OF MEMORIES YOU KNOW! RIGHT NESS?
So i had to get ready for my day out with my family
to the flyer! well its really amazing! though i kept
having flashbacks of London. haha. And they were
all so cute.. My family sang "Happy Birthday to You"
Song for me when the speaker went "You are now
ON TOP OF THE WORLD!" hehe. VERY LOUDLY.
Oh wells.

then we headed to Earle's Swensens and had our
delicious and tons of course MEAL! hahaha. Kak Mas
family came for the dinner! and they gave me a surprise
by bringing me STRAWBERRY OREO CHEESECAKE!!!!
omg YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I HAVE ENDURED
MY CRAVINGS FOR CHEESECAKE FOR THE PAST WEEKS!
GOSHNESS.

I would like to say a whole lot of thank you to my family
members and Mak Ngah's family especially to MAMA for
spending time with me on the 2nd day of raya which is my
birthday.

DIDIL got me a pink pen which allows me to put a picture of
my loved one on it! haha. SO CUTELA.

ABG HAIRUL & KAK AFIAH got me a victoria secret's perfume
and body lotion!

ABG AN & CHERRY gave me $150, which i spend on my
Raya accessories.

MAMA will be getting a watch of my choice... SOO we'll see
which one i'll choose

ABG IN & KAK NAD i know what they're getting for me. SECRET! ;)

and sadly, yes, my teenage years are going away faster
and faster. I'm 18 now. No more 17. Being 17 was great.
Actually being below 18 was great. Now, i'm half legal,
and i have to grow up.

everyone asked what i wished for today... but really, i
can never ask for a better birthday than what i had today.
i'd ask for my dad to be here but i know he's already
watching. i'm learning to accept what i have. Wishing
for something that you want badly will only crush your
hopes. Might as well let it be and just allow fate takes its
course.

though, I REALLY REALLY WANNA LOSE WEIGHT.
Pics will be uploaded in a jiffy. Give me a day PLS!

gym anyone?

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2008-10-01T00:33:00.001+08:00

Another day!

met Saralyn and Wei Zhi... i passed his birthday present to him.
haha. AND the coolest part. i wore my baju kurung out today.
these 2 were like so shocked. well how shocked? SARA CHOKED.
hahaha AND they were eating Hip Diners USA by billy bombers.

And they're the 2nd 3 (plus Sara's bf) people to give me my presents!
1) Sling bag
2) Stitch pouch
3) A "Once upon a time" notebook
4) A pink necklace

I LIKE ALL OF THEM! THANK YOUU SOOO MUCHHH

sorry i had to rush off. i'll make it up to you guys next week kay!
LUNCH! PROMISE :) And to those i still owe dates with such as
Beverley, Boo, Ness, Erin, Yun Wei, Triana and MAI!

Just finished watching Gossip Girl. Now i understand why Chuck
Bass is who he is now. I <3 GG!!!! :)

AND I MISS MY SAYANG A LOT.

So to all muslims out there, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Maaf jika Erly tersalah silap ke...
terkasar atau menyakitkan hati siape-siape...

k so from where i left off. To those who celebrate it and even to
those who don't celebrate it but still feel like celebrating, enjoy
your holiday! KAK YANI, you're not forgotten :). Wishing you're
here to celebrate it with all of us.

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2008-09-29T09:27:00.002+08:00

UGH. F1. I swear i'm sad. and PISSED.
BLOODY HELL MASSA WAS 1st okay.
BUTT.. as usual. surely something will happen
right. and there he went straight to the last.
MY HOPES WERE CRUSHED. well then
i thought raikonnen will continue being 2nd.
BUT NOOOO. he had to crash.

and yes. I AM SUPPORTING TEAM FERRARI!

at least hamilton was third. muahahaha.
not 1st. Glad that Alonso is 1st. been the
longest time since i saw him on the podium.
so as i watched the F1 night race while buffing
my nails and played my bro's batman lego
game on his PSP, i realised Raya is this wed.
STRESSED. haven gotten my shoe.. bag.. AHH

The weekend was grrreattt! Went for seminar with
Ness. haha. On how to be a millionaire. hee. But
i slept half way through.

Anyways, i received a really early birthday present
from Kak Mas, she bought me a black tote bag!
THANK YOU.

Grey's season 5 is out! :) it's really awesome.

The truth can never be hidden. Well, its out
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2008-09-23T13:32:00.002+08:00

2 more weeks till i turn 18.
I just wish i'd stay below 18.
Sigh. Mum asked what i want
for my birthday and i don't know
what to answer. and as much
as they wanna hide it, i know
there's a surprise birthday party.

Seriously, please, i don't want
a birthday party. I know turning
18 is like one of those birthdays you
should enjoy. but maybe not now.

What i really want for my birthday
can never be bought with money or
make. I just hope i won't cry on my
birthday. A year has passed, as much
as i'm stronger, i don't think i can
do it. SO as of now, i just wish i can
just be okay for my birthday.

Thank you to those who were there
for me last year. I'm glad you guys
were there.

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2008-09-21T04:40:00.003+08:00

I DIDNT SLEEP THE WHOLE NIGHT!
gosh. cooked briyani with tanter!
wooooh. i feel the rush of adrenaline in
my body. haha. highh. k. LATER! I have
a surprise for Fai. U might be thinking
why i'm blogging about it when it's
suppose to be a surprise. Especially
for tmr right. Mainly its coz i know
he's too tired to use the com when
he reaches home from work.

I MISS YOU!

hope you like it :)

Pls stop arguing. i'm tired.
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2008-09-20T00:45:00.003+08:00

i went to see you today
but i was scared you'd push me away.
i swear if it wasn't for boo
i wouldn't have seen you.

been working with ness.
colleagues are great.
funny experiences.
learnt new things.
love 7e's mash potato even more.
been eating that for breakingfast.

i saw you happy today.
it killed me deep inside you're doing great.

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2008-09-16T23:17:00.003+08:00

Once Again

Once again, we're standing here
Once again, we're lost for words
Once again, something have to crop up
to make our wonderful bliss feel miserable
Once again..

Once again, its about the same thing
Once again, we repeat our mistakes
Once again, i don't know what am i to
you.
Once again..

Once again, i thought its different
Once again, theres nothing to save
Once again, we believe there is something

So when will we know that the "once again"s will never
be repeated? How many times will we continue
going through these "once again"s? When can we
assure ourselves that it won't happen again?

I've changed for you. Have you?
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2008-09-16T12:00:00.004+08:00

Work started. 7 hours of training yesterday.
goodness. But i made new friends such as
Yi Wei and Shamimi. Ness and i like super
scared la to call all that. after awhile we're kinda
okay. haha.

headed to paya lebar and meet fai and
headed back home.
had webcam with him awhile. haha stupid pics

I don't know how we gonna make it through
but hopefully we will. and as much as its
not obvious enough already, yes, I'm upset.

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2008-09-12T00:40:00.002+08:00

WELLL. I GOT MY RESULTS.

i was effing scared to read it. BLOODY
HELL. FOR THE FIRST TIME I DIDN'T
FAIL ANY OF MY SUBJECTS. AND
GUESS WHAT! I improved! :)

More B's now! woohoo. OK. next sem
work HARDER for As.

Gonna work for Apple tmr. and start work
with ness on mon! at EmitAsia. SO those
subscribers to all their magazines, watch out
we'll be calling you... hahaha.

Ness! finally we're gonna work together. haha
yayy

Finally, it happens.
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2008-09-09T22:42:00.002+08:00

i'm sleeeppy. GOSH FINALLY i'm sleepy.

But i just saw the stuff on my tagboard. so
i thought i shall blog a bit.

MISS VANESSA GARNELL
YOU PRACTICALLY COPIED AND PASTED
THE WHOLE CHUNK FROM MY BLOG. GOSHNESS,
hahaha. WELL. LOVE YOU TOO :)

MISS SITI MAISARAH
we're suppose to buka together soon. with the dancers.
so hopefully all of us will be free. :)

MISS TRIANA REYASTUTY
don't forget the clash of the babats!

MISS ERIN CLARA IGNACIO GOTANGCO
I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE EVVIIILLL. U seriously cant
WAIT 2 more weeks! hahaha. kidding STILL LOVE YOU. :)

I think i'm high. blaa. OKAY. Accompanied Elly
for her check up today. she is soooo adorable.
and a nurse and some uncle thought i was her
MUMMY. haha. OKAY.

I felt bad standing there taking pics while she
cried during her jab! But she's a really strong
girl like her ibu. Cried awhile only and after
that she was all okay! :)

GG s2 episode 2 is out. well i guess i'll watch
that before i sleep.

Certain mistakes in life, that i never regret doing
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2008-09-09T07:46:00.003+08:00

I had trouble sleeping. Hence, an early
morning post today. Don't know whats
with me for the past few days. Woke
up and watched how i met your mother
(HIMYM).

Yesterday ness and i went out to tm.
i signed up for body shop membership...
bought stuff from body shop and la senza.
went to mango.. fai bought jeans and he
dropped the bomb on me by saying he got
the job at FL. well. won't be seeing him
around this hols. sigh.

it's a short post coz its early morning and
my brain isn't functioning well enough.
so with this i shall end my post today
with a quote i just heard from HIMYM.

Lily: There are certain things in life where
you know it's a mistake but you don't really
know it's a mistake because the only way to
know that it really is a mistake is to make
that mistake and go, "Yup, that was a mistake".
So really, the bigger mistake would be to not
make the mistake because then you'll go about
your whole life not knowing whether it was a
mistake or not.

What mistake will i be doing today?
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2008-09-07T23:55:00.002+08:00

Lucky i'm in love with my best friend -Technically?

I'm all hyped up with all the upcoming events!
I've been sitting at home for the past few days
and i'm really kinda getting bored. Finished
watching ANTM 10. GG season episode 1.
Waiting for GG episode 2 and ANTM 11. Gosh.
I never thought ANTM will ever have a
tranversite. hahah. well i'm cool with it.

So this week I'll be working for Apple again
on Friday till Sunday. Hopefully
Ayu, Ness and I will get the NUH job coz
seriously, its really worth it. Oh yes, NUH
job will be on this Thursday till the following
Wednesday. So if i get this job, it will be 2 jobs
at the same period of time. Well its my first time
andd.. i'm really looking forward to it. LASTLY!
at standard chartered! hopefully i get that job too.
EXCITED! :)

Bought for my mum orchids from the bazaar.
Found it really pretty. haha. OHH andd I start
doing something for Fai's birthday coz i was bored
and i just bought stuff for the first part of his
birthday present.

SO FAI this is the only clue i'm giving you
till your birthday. :)

I'm glad we're here. :)
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2008-09-02T01:51:00.004+08:00

Past four days, been working at COMEX IT
fair for Linksys' Redemption and Flyer girl.
haha. made new friends. Was fun :)
Worked with Reanne, Michelle and Siewlin.
JQ was working as security!!!!!! haha SOO
CUTEEE. :)

Up close and personal

1st day of fasting month breezed through.
met up with Ness and Ayu for the job thingy
at tanjong pagar. Ayu left and Ness and i headed
to city hall by feet. We're glad that we actually
know how to get around to city hall. haha.
oh wells. reached esplanade. sitting by the river
talking. and then i asked a question.

"What building or whatever was on this land before
esplanade was built?"

and we realised one thing. as much as we're old,
we were too young to remember. haha.

So we headed to city link and went to MPH and
hula & co. We've agreed to go for some kind of
a Ladies session together. in other words, learn
how to cook and sew classes. Any openings?

Headed back and break fast. Had really yummy
food. And i started to think about last year.

Either way, today i reflected a lot. Eversince
Papa's death, i started to think about what my
aunt once told me when i found out about papa's
condition. "Maybe, God has greater plans, maybe
to unite your family"

I thought about it thoroughly and i agree that it may
be one of the reasons. There are the pros and cons to
papa's death. I miss him dearly, but somehow, it made
me feel more human than ever before. As much as i
was in denial about the whole thing. Thinking that
he was still around and that i'll see him sooon. I have
now learned to cherish what i have even more. My
family, my friends and everything in this world.

I know i'm closer to my mum and my elder brother.
They're not just my family, but best friends as well.
I know the feeling of hurt of losing someone you
care and love so dearly. And i know i dont want to
feel it again. When i found out that my eldest brother
has this thing called gout, - which my dad once had too
before cancer came about- i didn't know how to react.
Firstly, i feel like breaking down thinking, why is this
happening all over again.

Coming back to NUH today to visit my cousin
woke me up. I thought of the times we spent
last year at NUH during the fasting month with
Papa and all the times we had. I was in denial that
he was sick and dying. I kept telling myself that
he was gonna be okay and that he'll live. I knew i
was wrong and well, I never got the chance to say
goodbye.

Its my first fasting month without Papa. I know
we all feel the loss. But i'm glad i still have a family
to turn to. As much as we don't say things such
as "I love you" to each other like other families,
i know deep down we all know, we love each other.

I found his old glasses on my elder bro's table.
It reminded me of him a lot. And i really can't
deny that I miss him so.

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2008-09-01T00:32:00.001+08:00

You bloody hell didn't care
so why the hell are you even speaking to me.
Fuck off

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2008-08-26T22:15:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 15 Months Darling!

EXAMS ARE OVERRRR! WWOOOOTTTSS!

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2008-08-24T23:33:00.003+08:00

So another week over. Studied for FOI.
Went for FOI exam. Papa's Memorial
Service. Mai came.

ONE MORE PAPER TO GO!

been going to the gym and been bumping
to Ness. :) haha. and tomorrow to study
with her. :)

Yesterday celebrated Boo's birthday at
Fish & Co.! After the longest time, I met
up with Regina and Yulin. Hilariously fun.
talked abt our SAC life and how we've changed
eversince then! I swear not a moment we
regretted being a SACIAN. haha. Saw the
fireworks at Marina. and boo thought that
the loud sounds made by the fieworks were
thunders! hahaha cute laa.

For what we've been through
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2008-08-14T17:13:00.002+08:00

so another week nearly come to an end.
as much this feeling of relieved-ness, i'm
still pissed about today's presentation for
DERV. Angry with myself? i don't know
actually. So tmr i still have econs exam.
and thats it for this hectic week. can't
wait till it is seriously over.

Mama said that the trip to Japan is back
on. and i feel sad coz i only have a week of
holidays and i'm not sure if i can even go
if my hols is only a week. sighh.
raya's coming. which means birthday is
coming. sighh.

i feel super f*cked up.

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2008-08-11T23:03:00.002+08:00

there's only so much that i can do,
but how do i know when to it let go?
this feeling of frustration cannot be described
venting my anger does not make any difference
so why am i sitting here feeling all rotten up
with no words left unsaid to make me feel better

i've tried again and again. but once again i fall down
and failed. so tell me when am i suppose to know
when to try again or just simply give up.

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2008-08-10T19:38:00.002+08:00

I asked myself today why i love the weekends
most compared to other days. Apart from the
extra sleep i get during the weekends, i realise
its only during the weekends that i get to eat
really yummy food. SO today i followed my mum,
tanter and cherry to sheng siong. a really good
place to get fresh seafood. haha. But before
that, we had a detour to Tanjong Katong complex.
It seems that they are all getting ready for Hari
Raya. SO exciting! AND THIS YEAR'S RAYA
FALLS EXACTLY ON MY BIRTHDAYYYY.
:) im not planning to celebrate my birthday
anyways. too much happened last year during
this period of time.

OH wells. I went to First Lady (A place where
they have normal quality of malay traditional
clothes in mass production) to check out what
are the clothes people will be wearing this year.
try to get some ideas for mine. i saw this white
kebaya and tried it on. i stepped out of the cubicle
and showed my mum and a lot of people were
staring. gosh. my body fit nicely except the shoulders.
haha. my mum promised to sew one for me.

so finally we headed for sheng siong
bedok. the feeling of sadness overwhelmed
me again when i was picking the crabs for
today's menu of chilli crab... Usually,
this was done by my dad. Today, i did it
for my mum and the feeling is kinda weird.

we headed back home. and the crabs became
this! hee.

wishing to wake up and see you everyday...

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2008-08-09T13:49:00.004+08:00

fridayy.

Lunch with mai and fai!
walked around bugis and ate at tongseng! forced mai to eat
chilli padi. haha. should have seen her expression! anyways
bought my bro a peter griffin boxers with "HOTTIE" on it.
i found it adorable! :) headed back after drinking my mango
tango and mai's mango smoothie. WE HEART MANGO. haha.
and i saw 2 pairs of shoes which i am total in love with. Its
from Pazzion. sighh. and another pair from charles and keith.
SIGHS even more.

Last last thursday i bought donuts for the girls
sooo yummy. and i swear Siewlin ate the most kayy

Somewhere in the lab we caught Reanne redhanded
eating the double choc.

KILLLL

HMMMM

And in the end, i watch you only from the outside.

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2008-08-06T22:05:00.002+08:00

Today i was all tired from lecture to COTS test
to doing of CMSK brochure and FOI lecture
and SUDOKU challenge -which i gave up half
way... better than sara who wrote 2 numbers
only -.-" - and met boo at Starbucks tamp.
we caught up with each other's life eversince
dance practices ended. Sat there drinking my
caramel frapp and potato salad while talking to
her. Half way she decided to get the choc scones
and choc milkshake. ALL TASTED GOOD.

I hope we'll always stay this close boo!
And 22nd August, we'll celebrate your
birthday alright. and i'll still get that chicken
for you. hehe.

walked to the bus stop and bumped into
Sharifah. Boo and i agreed that house of
the dead is best played when we both team
up together coz i tend to lose when i team
up with fai or mai. haha. I still love you
both kay. haha.

Everything changes in life... but the important things remain the same.
i love you faijal. always.

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2008-08-05T00:26:00.003+08:00

Funny how you think about it, 9 months
passed by so quickly and I'm now moving on.
I guess i got over the denial period and now in
the acceptance period. Wherever he is, i know
he's still watching over me and that i hope he
knows we are missing him truly. Fasting month
is coming and all i can think about is those times
we spend with him during this auspicious period.
Our first Raya without him. Hope it will be okay.

I have finally woken up to reality.

2008-08-04T12:33:00.001+08:00

BLOG UNDER CONSTRUCTION!!! :)

THANK YOU TUTSS MWAHHH

2008-07-28T11:15:00.003+08:00

Swirl of Sensation

Thank you for coming and supporting me
everyone! from Mama, Tanter, Kak Mas,
Abg. D, Cherry, Fai, Triana, Ain, Erin and to those
who weren't there, i know you guys were
still supporting me! i understand you guys
can't make it. :)

3 days went by so quickly and I'm aching
for more of dance. i miss everyone! sigh.
i enjoyed myself despite all the nervous
breakdowns and forgetting of steps!
Victoria seems smaller to me now
compared to when i was a sec 4.

I stayed up on Saturday night thinking
about this.. like that's our last dance.
and performance. SADNESS. I hope
we'll always stay close. Those hard
work paid off. :)

there's nothing to look forward to Fridays anymore..

2008-07-21T22:33:00.003+08:00

Fai brought me to watch dark knight today. SO FREAKING NICEE.
i rate 11/10. yea. so what if its 153 mins and our butt was aching. IT
was for such a GOOD cause. to know that heath died a legend - the
best crazy actor that became the Joker in that movie, really made
me feel better that he did not die as no one.
thanks for the movie :)

i swear i'm amazed and like... totally can't get enough of the movie.
with the cool effects and umm all the words they used that touches
my heart. ouh and SOMEONE died.

the quotes:

"You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become
the villain. The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise
you, the dawn is coming!'

"Because he's the hero that Gotham deserves, but not the one it needs
right now... and so we'll hunt him... because he can take it... because
he's not a hero... he's a silent guardian, a watchful protector...
a Dark Knight..."

Heath, you're missed.

"why so serious?"
p.s. i'm silly.

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2008-07-17T22:18:00.002+08:00

I laughed today. Like literally. People around
you can just make you happy. (:
Joanne and Siewlin was so hilarious. We had
lunch at design. Joanne and I were in love
with the muslim food’s spiciness! Hehe. So
we were heading back to IT school via the
huge stairs. And this 2 girls became my flower
girls!!! Haha. Look at the pic. Everyone was
staring and like “oo take pics…” and “oo carry
skirt…” embarrassingly fun okay! Haha.

And there was this moment when the 2 girls
were on the way back to class while Sara and
I just stepped out of class. So I shouted “STOP!”.

Reanne was sick today! Fever! Oh wells. Such a
boring day – in terms of class… but I learned a lot.
4 hours of lab. like SERIOUSLY. eyes all tired!!!
Bumped into tuts, ain, bets, ain’s ayu, was suppose
to bump into yunwei… haha. Everyone is missed.

Bored in lecture :)

The day before, ate lunch at engineering’s Sugarloaf.
Mouth watering! Was alright… first time there okay!
Dinner with Jo at eastpoint and she agreed on the
double s’! haha. Don’t know when we’re free! Sigh
BUSY BUSY. ): WE BUMPED INTO BOO AND
PRAKASH!! (:

sugarloaf! u got me begging you for mercy!!

To me, u’re always a fucker. FUCKER.

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2008-07-16T23:06:00.003+08:00

An emo moment

Every day we wake up to a new day, have
we realize we’ve changed into someone else?
You start to wonder what life is about and you
try to remember what had already happened
in your life.

U realized things have already changed and
some things in life are already broken.
And day by day, you slowly pick back up the
pieces and mend it back together.
Is that enough?
There’s still that crack.
The wound stays there.
It never mends.

I’m tired of waking up to a new day.
I need you back in my life. please.

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2008-07-12T20:21:00.002+08:00

THURSDAYY
so finally beverley gave me my last year's
christmas present! haha its okay it's late!
oh wells. I LOVE IT. i miss getting presents
and surprises from people. haha. watched
Wanted with Fai and Ness. haha. though
it has a lame story line, its QUITE alright.
only today Fai realised that after every
movie Ness and I watch, we'll talk and
think about why the story is like that and!
what are the stuff missing in the story.
came home late! goshh haha. super tired!

Econs was soo confusing. out of all the
lectures econs is the only one i've been
missing. so during tutorials, i'm lost!
went for my second cycle ytd and its not as
painful. mak ngah followed me everywhere.
thank you :) had starbucks for tea and delifrance
for dinner. was looking for birks in tamp mall. i
forgot that they don't have it here. sigh.

saturday woke up early for full dress rehearsal.
i didn't dance though... due to my leg. just watched
and helped around. went for lunch with Mai, Fatin
and Fai. i just love spending time with that girl.
haha. ouh yeahh. bumped into faridahhdahh!
headed back home and someone left coz i fell
asleep. hmph :(

waking up to this reality is not great after all

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2008-07-10T09:36:00.003+08:00

yesterday has a nice lunch with Saralyn and
Wei Zhi. he treated us as, i won the bet. the
bet is about who will win the wimbledon finals.
duhh i supported nadal. anyone of you should
have watched the match! anyways, he brought
us to swensens.rich dude. hmph. haha. Sara
left to watch movie with boyfiee and Wei Zhi
accompanied me to the post office (to collect
my mum's package) and to the library (to
return books). i totally forgot to purchase a
starbucks bottle. I will do it soon. when i'm free ;)
thanks for lunch :)

today i was early! and i went for lecture.
i don't know why these days i am motivated
to go for lectures! i guess the fulfilled feeling
after a lecture that i've learned something new
today motivated me. will be having a GC test
today. and still rushing through...

After the test, planning to watch Wanted with
Fai tonight after the test. still pondering about it.

AND AND! next week. meeting up with Racial
Harmony Clique. hopefully!! Double S's okay?
mwahh!

How do you know that's what you want?

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2008-07-08T21:43:00.003+08:00

today started with COTS tutorial.
was on time. wasn't late. haha.
went for CMSK and i realised how
much work i had left. i'm rather
tired. ate at design with the
other 5 girls.

went for DERV lab for the 1st time.
and i just realised how dry this
subject can be. Ms Lina told me
about the extension of her trip
after we left Paris. She stayed
there for another 5 days and left
for Belgium. goshness. haha. so
cool!

headed for FOI after that and
i felt a sense of relief because,
i told myself to stay awake and,
pay attention in class. This
sem, i want to score As. i'll
work hard. i promise ;)

tell me again, what i've forgotten.
i'm not sure what i'm suppose to remember.

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2008-07-06T00:43:00.003+08:00

thursday! pics!

spot the diff! :)

i was lost for words when kak yani left.
i didn't know what to say or do. but i know
where i stand.

elly was adorable as usual. trying to speak!
goshh. her cute smile. haha. and my family
said that she has her mums features.

so friday was all busy. after econs, i went for
dance and after that to the airport. ate at
the new J's Wok and Grill near grandparents'
house.

Saturday, dance and went home. slept half the day
and headed for dinner at sembawang. but turns out
its closed. so we went east coast instead. craziness.
SO FULL.

Sunday 2 weddings. yummy food. GOSHH
someone help me!! I'm gaining weight. a lot!!
i have to stop eating. i need to start on my
diet again!

ugh. erly, stop eating and start
exercising. i'm all about raspberry ripple

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2008-07-03T09:30:00.003+08:00

these days i've been busy.
well at least after four days
i got to see him on tuesday. :)
hmm i would like to list down
why i hate this wart.

1) It sux
2) Seriously, it sux badly
3) i cant go swimming
4) i cant dance properly
5) i can't wear heels
6) It really really sux!

okay. so today i'm suppose to have
presentation. so HOPEFULLY we
will present today. kept postponing.
sheesh. i'm all pink and white today.
raspberry ripple. ;)

on tuesday, hafiz, reanne and i named
our chocolate Je taime. haha. for our
communication skills. i thought it was
rather creative! haha.

Love me, you won't need another.
A taste too sexy to forget.

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2008-06-30T23:02:00.003+08:00

so after school today, Kak Mas brought me
out to shop at Vivo! WOOO vivo! haha.
went to forever 21 and none of the clothes
screamed ERLY!

so i headed to TOPSHOP. well. being me,
i love batgirl. there was a T-shirt with a
huge pic of her on it. its super nice. but no
size. sobs. so i got a wonder woman T-shirt
instead. :) don't ask how much it cost. some
of u will scream at me. haha

we headed to Gap and Esprit. i just realised
that i am no vintage girl. i need colours!
we were looking at the baby clothes for Elly.
GOSH ADORABLE. and can u believe
that no matter what, i ended up in mango
again.

I DONT KNOW WHY! what is
with me and mango?? okay. so i bought
a formal high waisted white skirt which
i found it gorgeous. oh wells. there goes
106 bucks in shopping for a day.

Thanks for shopping Kak Mas! :)

I'm still waiting for my birks. :(

When i'm being a bitch, I BITCH.
BAD.
watch out.

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2008-06-30T09:47:00.002+08:00

is it me or blogging is getting more dangerous?
well you should not like talk about someone so
openly and obviously my dear. its weird how
people can just find your blog by just google-ing.
i've learned. in the hardest way.

anyways.

in school and i only slept for 2 hours after doing
my trip report. i will be busy again this week as
last week. well i need to shop to destress. and
with Kak yani leaving this Friday. blaa. i need
spa too. okay stop complaining erly!

shopping anyone?

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2008-06-29T11:57:00.002+08:00

Friday

went for my surgery for my feet! it was
quite painful. Managed to stay alive.
hee. I still have about 5 more cycles to do
before its hopefully gone. so every 2 weeks
now, i have to go for the surgery. oh wells.
slept over kak yani's house on friday night.
watch nana tanjung 2. Seriously that saiful
apek reminds me of Didil. Hilariously dumb.

Saturday was farewell party. my feet was
super aching. anyways after that we left
to go parkway. after awhile my feet was
in pain and the shops were closing. all i
got was one pink mango top. Mum promised
to get me the birks. and other things. hee

hey dude, i f*cking hate you.

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2008-06-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

For past weeks i feel better. Maybe having
friends and family love really helped me a lot.
A necklace i wear these days makes me feel
closer to him. Even though he's so far away.
It belonged to him and I miss seeing it on him.
I think this is the reason why i am so attached
to this necklace.

so today we finished up our CASH report.
Reanne and i hugged it coz we're SOOOO
relieved. sigh. i'm left with presentations.
WOOO. okay. i'm tired since 9 am in school
till 7 plus pm. CASH test. another sigh of
relief.

Had a talk with my bro today and it seems
that we miss papa a lot. we'll get through
it together. i promise. its hard, i know.
we were talking about toys and so many
other things. its like so hilarious. and i
miss our old days when papa would
join our conversations too. i guess its
another emotional day today.

Happy one year one month darling! (:

my life is filled with colours now thanks
to all of you. (:

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2008-06-24T10:42:00.004+08:00

sorry! was busy with projects and studying.
sigh! busy life! haha. i destressed by watching
mtv movie awards. gosh couldn't stop laughing
MIKE MYERS WAS HILARIOUS. omg!
johnny depp was so hot!! old dude. but still hot.
*faints*

oh by the way, i'm kinda in love with Robert Downey
Jr. haha. the ironman dude! you guys may have seen
this on american idol. oh wells! Click on it! :)
The Pips

ok ok. pics will be up soon. give me till this sunday.
kayy? mwahhs!

ouh and, swirl of sensation tickets are selling fast!
please do come and support us! :)

date: 25th july or 26th july
time: 7 p.m.
venue: victoria theatre
tix: $15, $20 and $25

contact me for the tix alright :)

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2008-06-18T01:09:00.002+08:00

14th June 2008

Happy Birthday Ness! :)
Swensens. Presents and a red rose.

15th June 2008

Dinner at Hyatt's Straits Kitchen. YUMMY FOOD.
with Mak Ngah's family. :) it was so hilarious.
Pick up sticks using the chopsticks. who lose had to
eat the leftovers. the last few rounds, we made it
cooler by making the loser eat a slice of lemon. hahaha
and well mak ngah topped everyone by eating 2 slices!
haha. well done mak ngah :)

a great family day.

lemon sucking!

pick up chopsticks!

family!

Happy father's day, papa. We miss you truly.

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