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Monday, August 2, 2010?

Sometimes I wonder how long it'll take for someone to notice if one of us disappear. Probably those whom you're really close to will notice within few minutes to a day that you're gone. But what if it's those people whom you THINK you're close with. Hey, you know what? Nobody cares!

I wanna plan my days ahead and just shut up. Nights love.

thatgirl;

still loves you at 12:23 AM

Tuesday, July 20, 2010?

We tend to wake up everyday forgetting about what brought us here today. Taking advantage of each day thinking 'hey! There's always tomorrow!'. But that's always not the case.

Yesterday I received my first birthday present for this year from my eldest brother. I'm not boasting really. I'm just curious how the whole thing is like repeating itself. He bought me a D&G shades which I liked and you should know by now it may be quite pricey. He then got nagged by my mum for spending so much money on such things and my birthday is still 3 months away.

This reminded me of an incident which happened during raya season yearsss ago! My family and I were at Geylang Bazaar and I saw the pink ranger costume! -.-" (I was a kid then!) I wanted it so bad! But of course my parents thought it was just a waste of money. I remembered throwing tantrums and felt really really sad. But guess what? The next day, Andi headed down to Geylang and bought me that pink ranger costume. I was happy ofcourse. But on the other hand, he got nagged by my mum. (I pity my brothers for going through all that for me.. Haha)

At the end of the day, I got thinking again. All this while, he just wanted me to be happy.. I feel guilty too. My happiness might just hurt someone. I'm thankful for eveything my family have done for me.

I guess I'm just emoing thinking about family stuff since fasting month is coming. But hey, I'll still be awesome. Still smiling and will still face tomorrow as a brand new day.

thatgirl;

still loves you at 12:31 AM

Wednesday, April 7, 2010?

Pics will be up.. probably just the cupcakes. But the

came-rah! is with my brother. So I have not really

uploaded it into my comp.

Btw, I was just looking up at Nigella's Recipes and

I'm just excited to start baking again soon. This week

will be packed with so many activities! :S Probably

next week okay? Cheesecake maybe?

And i just realise that Nigella has a white Kitchen Aid.

I WANT THE PINK ONE!!! My current one is still

working. Probably I should save up for that. :))

Mannn. so many things to save up for.. I'll keep

reminding myself. "Buy things that I NEED, and NOT

what I want!"

Any ideas whether I should keep my recipes in a

file or a notebook?

Knowing that i heart buying pretty notebooks, Rabiah told

me not to invest in a pretty notebook just for my recipes.

HAHA. FINEEE. and yesss i will bake for you creme brulee

soon :)

I'll be off to Kelong with Sara's Family this weekend :)

Hearty Hearts

Erlianna

thatgirl;

still loves you at 1:11 AM

Monday, April 5, 2010?

Well, i'd like to update just to make my darlings happy.

So from you guys may already know, I'm just spending

my free days at home baking!

(This is thanks to Fauzi - my australian far relative - who

have given me the inspiration to continue my passion to

bake!)

So this post is mainly on my days baking and cooking...

Hope you guys won't fall asleep reading! :)

I have baked a few things for the past week.

Apple Cinnammon and Walnut Muffin

I tried baking a muffin for the first time and it turned out

okay.. Not the texture that I was hoping for. But it seems

that my faithful baking fans love it. haha! Thank you!

I got the recipe off a website that I thought was trustworthy

enough. I felt really happy when i left the muffin batter for

a few minutes in the oven and i started smelling the chemical

reaction the apples, cinnamon and nutmeg came together.

Awesomeness and Heavenly.

Apple Cinnammon Cupcakes

This one was rather impromptu as my poor sick brother was

really sick and tired of eating the porridge tanter has cooked

for him and he made me bake something special for him.

It was a rainy day and so.. what is much nicer than apple and

cinnamon cupcakes? It turned out well. Tasted way way wayy

awesomer than the muffins. However, the texture was too

mushy for my "idea" of cupcakes. But it made my family happy. :)

Alfredo Pasta

I got this recipe from this recipe book of a friend name Maisarah!

and well I didn't quite like how the strong taste of Parmesan Cheese

that lingered after eating it. As a whole, i think that the recipe was a

bit off. Probably I'll check up on Nigella's website whether she has a

better recipe :) But again.. Thanks Mai for lending me your recipe book!

Creme Brulee

Anyone has any idea how long can we keep the creme brulee? This

is my 2nd time making it and well, I can swear to you that, it turned

out really well. Stupid thing was that i didn't manage to take any pictures

of it. HOWEVER, the sad part was that, the next day it turned all soggy

and the caramelised sugar seemed to become liquid. Really weird!

But the night before, my family and I managed to eat at least one

ramekin filled with awesome creme brulee :) I finally got everything

right. Except probably I should cut down the number of eggs.... The taste

of the eggs was a bit strong. Sorry Yunwei... if only it didnt turn bad on

the day you came :S and also Ness and Fai, I couldn't let you guys taste it.

Thats all for now. But I promise you guys that I will update soon

on another round of my baking adventures :)

Thank You faithful fans! You know who you guys are! I love you guys lots!

Mwahh!

Hearty Hearts

Erlianna

thatgirl;

still loves you at 12:39 AM

Monday, February 1, 2010?

Recent updates of my life.

No.1 I'm screwed for dance! SERIOUS

No.2 Why is life suddenly filled with lots of goodbyes and deaths?

No.3 I realised that i'm really tired. (I need more sleep) Funny I always say that but never really decide to go to bed early. haha.

No.4 I cant wait to watch "Valentine's Day" when it comes out. TAYLOR! ;)

No.5 I'm super busy this Feb that it sometimes scares me thinking abt how free i'll be in March. (and broke too)

You wanna say hello. but you didn't because you're scared of what might happen after that.

hearty hearts

thatgirl;

still loves you at 11:31 PM

Saturday, December 5, 2009?

MISSING YOU

Vanessa says:

*ya hahah

*can't believe we're almost done

*hahaha

♥Erlianna is thatgirlwholovesyou says:

*yaaa

*omg

*3 yrs huh

Vanessa says:

*mhmm

♥Erlianna is thatgirlwholovesyou says:

*everytime i look at my matric card or ezlink

*i rmbd the day we went to take the pic together

*hahaha

Vanessa says:

*hahahhaa

♥Erlianna is thatgirlwholovesyou says:

*gosh

*and we went shopping afterwords

**afterwards

Vanessa says:

* yeahhh

♥Erlianna is thatgirlwholovesyou says:

*i remember us taking pics then too

*hahaha

*i think it was century square

*haha

Vanessa says:

*ya somewhere in tamp

*haha

♥Erlianna is thatgirlwholovesyou says:

*and i was scared of going to sch

*coz i didn know anyone

*haha

*goshh

Vanessa says:

*hhahaha

*long time ago

*so much past by so fast

Yes Ness, time pass by so fast. Graduation is less than half a year away. And afterwards we'll say goodbye again and continue with our journey separately. haha. Gosh. I still remember those days in SAC when we were more worried about our O's. Who would have thought fate led us to this day where we're still in contact and still speaking to each other?

Haha. Even if we were separated in TP, at least I still have you to bump into once in awhile. Though those times can never cover the times I've missed you but I just want you to know that it was great to actually bump into you even for that few minutes to just speak to you again. This goes to Boo and Tuts too! You guys cheer my day up in just a millisecond when I see you guys in school! (Boo, when your were still in TP i mean) haha. Even after, you were still my BFF till today my S! :)

Who would have thought on the first day we met in primary school, that we'd actually get the chance to continue to speak to each other till today? Haha. I miss you guys so much! mwahh!

Hearty Hearts

thatgirl;

still loves you at 2:08 AM

Wednesday, December 2, 2009?

IM TIRED. I wanna go sleep!

Bye!

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thatgirl;

still loves you at 9:25 PM

Wednesday, November 25, 2009?

I'M NOT A WORKAHOLIC!

I admit I spend a lot of time at work compared to my other friends. But come on! I enjoy the rush of things. Haha. Okay, I promise i'll find time to meet each one of you on days when i'm not tired. Some of you are waiting for a cheescake meet up... a river island shopping meet up... a new moon meet up... a christmas shopping meet up.. and many more. Haha. I PROMISE I'LL FIND THE TIME. And I MISS YOU GUYS A LOT. Each and everyone of you. :)

DID I TELL YOU!

I bought JT's DVD. I finally got it. And never a day since the day I bought it, have I not stop watching him dance and sing when I got home from work. WHICH TOTALLY moves my heart and soul. sigh! haha. and totally make me energized after a day at work.

LONDON

Kak Mas and family just got back from Europe! YAY SHE LOVES LONDON TOO NOW. I MEAN ITS LONDON. I LOVE LONDON. and i started thinking of the possibilities of how different life would be if I moved to London 2 years back. Wow.. time flies by so quickly. And I still wonder if that dream of being in London again will come true.

You're such a nuisance in my life. GRR

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thatgirl;

still loves you at 9:38 PM

Sunday, November 22, 2009?

Have you ever wondered how life is weird and twisted that it has led you to this day and moment to be reading these words I'm writing?

I lived another day today. Thinking, I guess I am thankful. I have done uncountable mistakes in this lifetime that sometimes, it scares me.

So many things i'd wish I can turn to someone to pour my heart out. But at the end of the day, I just know, that it will be hard. And the fact that I'm sharing my burden with someone else.

Meeting all my friends at different interval of time and date somehow made me realise that i've changed. What happened to the bitchy moments I had with Boo and Ness? I need to feel young again. I NEED TO.

Every single thing that you do, God is watching. And I know what the fuck is going on.

Hearty Hearts

thatgirl;

still loves you at 1:23 AM

Thursday, October 29, 2009?

Remember.

This night 2 years ago, i reached home pretty late from
staying with my family at NUH.
Going to my bed thinking about what to wear to school
the next day and what were my plans for the day. and those
worries that i had been worrying was placed aside.
I finally decided that i should just wear whatever I'd
grab in the morning and rush off to school as per
normal... taking '8' to school. Such a regular day, I
thought.

I remembered vaguely what classes i had. However, there
was one moment which strucked me that something was
wrong. Being in class, i had to silent my phone. But somehow
that didn't allow me to fully pay attention in my Communication
Skills class, (or also known as CMSK). I had a few misscalls from
different family members and messages after messages.

I picked up one of the calls finally, after excusing myself out of the
classroom. All i heard on the other line was my Aunt's voice in
a grieve yet rushed voice asking me to take a cab down to NUH
right that moment. Somehow, that call sounded scary but i was
calm.

After speaking to the lecturer after a few moments, I ran to the
taxi stand. I still remember that even in the cab i was still calm.
camwhoring here and there... i did asked the cab driver to rush.
like those movies i've seen on tv. i reached NUH not knowing what
to expect.. i saw my mum sitting beside him. stroking his hair with
tears in her eyes. i saw how that morphine changed him in a manner
that i dont even understand what he was trying to say.

Everyone told me to stay strong for what's to come. And i just nodded
but in my head i was screaming to ask them to just SHUT UP. after
awhile he stabilised. Knowing he couldn't take the smell of food after
all the chemo, my mum ate lunch outside and since i was tired from
school i rested by the sofa at the side of his bed. i remember hugging
my pillow which i left at NUH for the past weeks he's been there.
My mum came back in to the room and everyone except the 3 of us
were there. I still rememer looking at my watch it was just 4.20 pm..
why not rest my eyes awhile. a few minutes later, i was awoken by my
mum's cries.. asking me to wake up. knowing me, i took a few moments to
regain my 'consciousness'. i was still in a daze when she told he was gone.

it took me awhile to get it through my thick skull that it was a fact.
that he was gone. i looked at my watch. it was 4.35 pm. Calculate that
time interval. i never got the chance to say goodbye properly. but all
i remembered was staring at his lifeless body, waiting for it to move
according to the rhythm of his breathing while sleeping which i've seen
for the past weeks. i never saw it again.

2 years has passed eversince that moment or day. somehow even if i put
up a front, deep inside i feel as though im still crumbling. somehow i wish
all of this is a nightmare and i'll wake up from it soon. this doesnt
feel right.

I miss you, Papa. Every smile, i smile, everyday is for you. I want you
to know that I'm stronger for this family. I hope wherever you are,
you're watching us with a smile on your face too. I miss having you
around to listen to my boring stories. and having to hear your
voice for any reasons. and hearing you call the 2 nicknames you
gave me when i was younger. i feel disgusted hearing it from others and i'm
sorry. i promise to stay calm. the hardship you've gone through
those years, now i finally understand.

thatgirl;

still loves you at 1:26 AM